the sinking feeling
So I have been here at college for a week and it has been quite interesting. I haven't been eating right and i feel like I am screwing myself up with worry and nervousness. At first I thought that I didn't want to be here, but now I think it is more that I have a social anxiety. I like hanging out with people but I have a hard time motivating myself to actually do it and then I spend a lot of time being afraid of it. I don't really have many "sisters" that I want to hang out with so i spend most of my time in my room. I get this sinking feeling almost every night when i am getting done with my homework and I want to talk to my boyfriend but I know he will be busy and I have nothing else to do but either try to hang out with other people or just hang out with myself. I think maybe I have really isolated myself in thsi sorority. I have friends outside but I don't reach out to them much. Plus I am really very busy. I should call Mel more often. I need to just enjoy the time that I am here.
